"I am In This"

So I've been planning Global Day of Prayer here in Saskatoon with two friends of mine for this year. It's coming up really fast, in less then a week now. We still seem to have so many details to pull together and as I've called people to be involved and looked for people who are eager to serve I haven't gotten a lot of positive results. It's been frustrating for me, being new at this and really not knowing how to plan such a big event in the first place, the lack of response seems to add to the frustration. I think in some ways I've lost some motivation and also have allowed myself to become lazy.

This morning I was reading from John Eldridge's blog, a well known christian author. I came across this:

“Both the Scriptures and the history of the church teach that if the Holy Spirit is working, the whole man will be involved and there will be much cost to the Christian. The more the Holy Spirit works, the more Christians will be used in battle, and the more they are used, the more there will be personal cost and tiredness. It is quite the opposite of what we might first think. People often cry out for the work of the Holy Spirit and yet forget that when the Holy Spirit works, there is always tremendous cost to the people of God, weariness and tears and battles.”

I asked God to use me and I guess in some ways I figured once the oppertunity came it would be easy. But it's a battle. Inward and outward. Further down in John's blog he wrote something that literally came off the page as though God were speaking those exact words to me, he wrote, "The consolation was also Jesus saying, 'You didn’t blow it; I asked you to do this. I am in this'".